so i re-read my old posts

holy shit man. just holy shit.

i forgot you existed blogspot ):

today, henry, ormond and i were discusing devera's livejournal
and it made me miss you
dear blogspot,
im sorry i left you
we used to spend so much time together
dont think just because ive met tumblr that ive left you eternally
you two are like my children
sorry ):
anyways, how have you been ?
im planning on reading all of my old posts over
will i be satisfied with you hmm ?
please dont tell me that you html-failed some of them

love you always,
jacqueline

ONE MORE WEEK

till harry potter
FUCK YES.
so close to warped tour 09
looking forward to that,
YAY.

yknow

ever since i got my macbook
i dont find myself spending every waking moment on blogspot,
i guess its a good thing
but i miss it here

HI

its been a while
and stephen ( 3sixty5days)
is coming
to great white north
i call home
im going to die ^.^

oh yeah,
DAILYBOOTH:
Youreamazing
go search that :D

i created my tube account on may 12th 2008

it doesnt seem like a year.
i've decided that i will proclaim my start date of the date of the first video i dont think is complete crap and know for sure i wont private

is this even remotley plausible ?

for im not quite happy with my channel
but it is what it is
all i know is that
i (unrealistically) want 1000 subs before my one year
but thats obviously not happening

if i were to write a post secret mine would say...

i have this folder entitled 'sweetheart' in hopes that my mum would be the snoop that she is and open the folder and go through the pictures. but really, theyre just all the post secrets that apply to me; i hope she reads every single one and starts to see what sort of crap i feel.

i secretly hope you check my blogspot

ill write a milion things in here,
about you
just hoping that maybe,
you'll find it
and realize
yes, YOU are the 'you' im referring to.



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EDIT.
i often finding myself thinking that if things were different and we were together,
would i still have all these
sleeping
eating
and blood
disorders/ problems.

---
EDIT.
that, and if my parents would approve of anything that makes me happy anymore.

so it was really hot today and i hate hot

like not nice hot like STICKY hot
and like two days ago, it was typical canadian spring weather
so it was like SHOCKER
so now im mad, cause i hate hot

IN OTHER NEWS:
im trying to win a contest :D
heres the link to my video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CybMDK6FU8k

totally stereotypical

i put this at my display picture and got 5 people saying:

you are so hardcore

what stereotypes go on in my friends' heads

i totally posted a picture comment on stephen (3sixty5days picture and no i dont have time for links sorry) and i got this

85 days till harry potter

your name is zelda and my name is link
ill save hyrule kingdom before you can blink

happy jesus' resurrection day (:

well i went to church today,
with my family of course
and the whole time i was there
i couldnt stop thinking, how can i believe so strongly
and others not at all
i realize everyones entitled to their own opinion
but like, its hard to let them know where i stand
i respect their views
but somehow they think mine are totally unorthodox
i wonder...

MY INTERNET LIVES!

and you best believe i saw hannah montana the movie yesterday
and you best believe that ive had the fucking best two days of my life

french project

so im doing my french project
and ive JUST realized that im learning a language
not just doing more school work

baby names right now

well,
im always thinking of baby names
so i might as well say which ones are current

benjamin levi [ levi ]
lily jette [ lily ]
alaska jane [ alaska ]
jessa rosali [ ali ]
annaleigh juno [ lo ]
nicholas luka [ luka ]

the names in the squared off brackets are what they would go by
before i forget why i chose these here they are :

levi :
after levi beamish

lily :
after lily potter (harry potter series ; JK rowling) & meaghan jette martin

alaska :
after alaska young (looking for alaska ; john green) & paula brancati(idol since dark oracle, she lives near me & went to school with my cousin) 's degrassi character

ali :
after jessa douggar (17 kids and counting), rosalie because i like the name without the e and (ali) after alicia lerma & my lola

lo :
i like the name anne so instead anna, and leigh was supposed to be my middle name & its my best friend(kira firkser)'s middle name. juno after juno miers and (lo) cause i like it

luka :
nicholas after york & jonas and luka cause i like it

today is february 27th

jonas brothers comes out today
139 days until harry potter
42 days until hannah montana

so close but SO far away

ive got to get it down before i forget

k so ive had these reoccuring dreams
ive had some like these before but its been a while since ive had one
today i took a nap
and then i had one of these dreams
its about me and a bunch of my friends having to save these hotel rooms in this creepy carnival like hugass expensive hotel
so i remember leaving off when i had two rooms left
and that was like 7 months ago
then today i dreamt we had to go
and i still had the string of keys that held the door keys in my pocket
so this time it was a different group of friends
and then we were in a circle discussing our plan of action
and then we went to the first room
and i couldnt see ghost of whatever
then i turned around cause somehow i got to the other side of the suite
and then i saw it ( p.s. it was like in a night gown & cap and somehow i remembered it )
and there was some lady there too chucking baby shoes
thats how i realized we werent alone
then somehow we made the lady leave
and the nightgown ghost was all panicing
and becky smith came and did breathing excersises with us
but her name wasnt becky smith
then we went downstairs
to the eerie carnival concession stand where we dicussed our plan at first
p.s. the whole dream is like eerie and fucking scary
then i got pulled out of the circle by lauren rogers
then me and lauren were talking
and she wanted to come along
apperantly we didnt get along before ?
so we made up and she came along
then we were walking up the stairs
and matt davies was all hand his hand on the small of my back
then i looked
and he was doing the same to lauren
and then we got to the room
and apperantly i dropped the key
so i went back for it
and nicole tomasi was like in that hall
bytheway most of this stuff i dont remmeber
k moving on
so i saw nicole
and then i magically ended up downstairs beside a balcony
and ben mccormick was up there telling me to hurry cause we need to get this room ginally done
so i had a bench thing
but it was infront of another bench thing
and picture frames were on the wall
and i couldnt get up the wall
then me and ben had some sort of heart to heart about really rare weed
and him doing this weed with some guy name read pronounced red
and we went to the last room together
all pumped
then we go in
and everyone else is already there
so ben takes the leader role
and is like okay everyone under the blankets and lets gather our materials
so first the blankets were coloured
then they all magically turned moss green
and we gathered ourstuff
and there was a bag of buggles there ( yknow those cone cornchip things that go on your fingers :P )
and then i woke up
i really needed to get that down

(:

im part internet

is it bad that i feel internet withdrawal after 12 hours without it?
and start getting sick without youtube after 2 days ?

edit

made it myself (:

dancing in the moonlight

i watched 'a walk to remember' today
it made me cry
like it always does
but then
it gave me like a warm feeling
so happy valentines day
love to all
(:

the sun is jealous of the way you shine

im hungry.
what else is new ?

feelings into words.

i suck at words
they dont like to explain what i mean
well,
this is for whoever the video description had this in.
im sorry
and youre mad at me
i just felt like
RIGHT after you said you werent leading me on & you wouldnt do that
i hear that you were going to her house
so basically you were leading me on
but you werent going to her place
and now i feel like an idiot
i HATE it when youre mad at me
it makes me feel like such a failure
like im a waste of a sperm and egg
please forgive me
i was stupid
you need to realize where i was coming from
sorry

valentines day

is today
people either LOVE it too much
or hate is for its marketability
personally, i think its just a tad blown out of proportion
but im not all "ew corporate holiday"
if you have someone to celebrate it with
then congrats
if you dont
appreciate those who you love
that you do have
like family
cause valentines day isnt for complaining
i dont think enough people understand that



i liked it, so i posted it (:

dates.

february 17th, high school musical comes out on DVD
february 27th, jonas brothers 3D
april 10th, hannah montana the movie
july 17th, harry potter and the half blood prince

YTquiz

Username: leUNFAMOUS

Why did you pick it?: i wish i knew

Who did you first subscribe to?: fiveawesomeguys, but i subscribed to whataboutadam on my old account right before this account

Who did you most recently subscribe to?: i subscribe every 3 seconds

What does your last text message say?: OHMYGOD! TREVOR!

Do you have any goals?: to grow & get more YT involved

What was the last thing you bought?: a sour key from the caf

Describe the person who posted this using one line?: beautiful

Are you excited about anything?: the show this weekend

Do you have a crush? very much so

Have you ever been drunk?: when am i not ?

Who was the first Youtuber you met in real life?: well it was all at once & twas ariel, matt, sam & shannon

Who was the last Youtuber you met in real life?: cait & mickie

Do you pefer day or night?: night

Are you a member of any collab channels?: yes

Do you have a secret account?: yes

Do you believe in God?: very much so

Which youtuber do you talk to the most?: mickie

Which Youtuber do you think makes the best videos?: you cant just pick one

You may only subscrie to 5 channels and only watch their videos. who will they be?: nerdfighterlike, 5awesomegays, corporalcadet, vlogbrothers, KIARA

Are you in a relationship?: no

Would you date a smoker?: nick york, yes.

Where is your favourite place?: anyplace with great people

Are you a happy person?: optimism is the closest thing to happy as im going to get.

Would you kiss the person who posted this?: very much so.

What would you take to the desert island? : a very nice private jet equipped with every thing i could ever need so i can have a nice ride home

Do you prefer sun or snow?: a sunny day with snow

Who did you last speak to on the phone? saraah

Who did you last text?: ummm riley ?

What are you doing tommorow?: probably homework, church & dying hair

What is your favourite flavour of potato chips?: if lays, original if ruffles, sour cream & onion

What size are your feet?: 4 maybe even 3

What do you want?: a boy

What do you need?: a boy

What do you remember?: selectivley.

What do you wish?: for all of my wishes to come true.

snow

apperantly its snowing in the uk
it snows here ALL THE TIME
you can have our canadian snow

i love him

yes.

169 till harry potter

my new life ambition is to get wasted in wellington with a bunch of NZYTbers

this is why

101 fucking posts ?

i wanted my 101st post to be special
but no

when i look back on 2007
i think of december of 2007
and when i think of then,
i feel ive grown so much since
and i miss you even more
we were so naive then
and now i realize how much of a great person you are
im sorry
youre the greatest
the only thing i want now is for us to be at least be friends again
so come back to me bluebird
and make my 2008 right
so i that WE can make 2009 right
and stay good, forever

xx

chris hardman

i love how youve come back into my life

ive realized

that me and matt get along pretty well
i think this is the start of a new fixed [ used to be destroyed ] friendship

jacqueline eats all

so kiara and i were watching a cinnamon swirl commercial and we were talking about how they look like us

then the yellower one ( kiara ) licked the dark one ( me )
i said oh my gosh thats us
then kiara said YEAH YOURE THE DARK ONE
then the dark one ate the yellow one

twas really us.

rant.

things are just going downhill from here,
with exams and stuff
i seriously dont need this shit:



i hate it how some guys can be just so charming and lovely, but theres just this feeling that you get that makes you know 'this wont work because we dont see eachother enough'

i hate feeling like i cant handle it anymore

i hate it how someone whos broken your heart multiple times before, will just be all nice and sweet to you, out of the blue, and will try to pull you back in

i hate words

i hate it when my fucking 'best friend' goes freaking emotion overboard every three seconds over something that hasnt changed with a guy

i hate when i have to repeat my self every fucking time to cheer some people up, just so that they can be happy again, and start the cycle again

i hate how im going to miss you

i hate it how it is so imensley hard for me to express myself

i hate it how some people are such fucking biters, and calling me out on copying THEM.
seriously fuck off man.

i hate when you hold some people so dearly to your heart whom you sincerly caring for and then being accused of being a power hungry dictator

i hate it when every single person is having a stupid epidemic that I NEED TO solve right that second even though i shouldnt even know about it

i hate KNOWING that nothing has changed in the last three seconds so dont complain now

i hate venting to people, on account, of i always think they are going through the same thing

i hate how halarious you can be just as i have to get back to reality where we havent/ will never talk again, other than this weekend

i hate having to think before i speak

i hate how im the one who needs to drop everything to cater to everyone else

i hate it how im presumed to have no problems EVER

i hate how you make me smile

i hate it how im the only one left

i hate being the one that is sympathized for; just stop doing it, the FUCKING end.

i hate keeping it in all the time

i hate the feeling i get when i tell someone about something bad in my life

i hate having to carry three conversations at one time, not to mention that im just reciting the same speeches i have three moments earlier

i hate it how i hate you so much and then you just come and sweet talk me to trust you

i hate how one single thought of you makes me want to run to your house, in the frezzing cold in nothing but my shortshorts and tshirt, and take you away from your family, and have you watch them not care that youre getting brutally kidnapped and then torture you but not to death; never to death.

i hate having to make up lies to get you to be quiet

i hate how i know i have to see your face tomorrow

i hate it when i dont respond in 1 second or if i respond with one word im automatically a bitch

i hate being catergorized into the 'she JUST has family problems, big deal' lot even though i have so much shit going on and family problems are just the start of it

i hate not having words to even start to explain how much i am angry

i hate it how the ones i love are so far away

i hate how im not close with you anymore; what ever happened to the three of us ?

i hate that knowing in three years i have to open the box that we buried, just to open it to the face of my sad past

i hate how everything has to be about you

i hate the snow, its not exactly helping me out

i hate how you treat my friends

i hate that the only thing i can think of telling you most of the time is SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID SO FUCKING SHUT YOUR TRAP

i hate how you dont want to fix things

i hate having to be the box that is always unchecked in the survey compared to your boyfriends

i hate it how whenever i see our old friends it makes me want to cry

i hate the thought of if i were loose everyone from my crowd tomorrow it wouldnt effect me

i hate the songs that remind me of you

i hate having to look back at my life before the summer and wishing that i had it back

i hate not having enough money for anything

i hate seeing your fucking biter face everywhere

i hate how there is NO song to describe this feeling i have for you

i hate how great you are sometimes

i hate the longing feeling i get when i see your crowd

i hate that feeling i get when i breath in your general direction of that part of the hemisphere

i hate knowing that i will never compare

i hate how distance is really the thing that keeps me safe


;
;
;
;
;
;
;
;

i just want to leave for a little while
to neri-island
with all the youtubers
and people i love

thatenglishgirl111 part 2

to see part one click here

i just finished watching levi's portrait video* and it featured dannie. i thought that the video was beautifly made and the shots were perfect for the feel i think he was trying to get.

but im not here to review portrait

while watching the video, i realized that dannie, is amazingly beautiful
i know ive said it before
but shes like a more humble and more pure looking angelina jolie

so really, this isnt a part two
its really just a response that had to do with dannie,
oh well

p.s. just to get it straight i really enjoyed the portrait video and think that dannie is perfect

*for levi's portrait video clickhere

i wanted to see what this looked like when i posted it

january 10th 2008

i have 100 fucking subscribers
i so would be doing my happy dance right now
but i dont have the strength to get up

i am really ill

i have no one to blame but myself
though,
since everyone else in the UK is blaming ginger chris
i shall too.

' shes a fucking WALRUS '

this is the first and last time im going to embed a youtube video on here

SORRY AGAIN

but i just had to say
i played blockles with JOHNNYDURHAM today
i print-screened it
but
i printscreened something else
so before i could post the johnny news i print screened this :



it made me feel like i have a chance with him
hes amazing
hes from youtube
and hes pretty
what more can i say ?

im going blog crazy

ive been up since 6:06 this morning
well i woke up at 4:44 and then i couldnt get to sleep so i came onto the computer to do homework
and now this will be my 4th(?) blog today
im sorry.
i am bored
and a HUGE procrastinator
>< !

jess's survey taking is seriously infectious

Given a Hickey? - no
Had a one night stand? - no
Made someone cry? - unfortunately
Opened your Christmas presents early? - nope, ruins the christmas magic
Been online for more than 10 hours in a row? - its not that bad ,
Pretended to be someone you weren't online? - too often
Eaten food that fell on the floor? - haha i live by the five second rule
Been caught cheating? - on a test & game ? yes
Been caught naked? - no
Flashed someone? - probably without me noticing
Gone out without underwear on? - out as in the journey from the washroom to my room, then yes
Got into a fist fight? - yes.
Swallowed bath water? - i havent taken a BATH BATH in like forever
Peed in the pool? - cheyah, im not goina lie to you internet
Thrown up in public? - yeah
Been so drunk you can't walk? - i could walk
Peed in public? - behind a tree yes
Broken wind and blamed someone else? - i dont in crowds
Done something mean you regretted? - very much
Ever played pull my finger? - sorry no. :P

im saving & quitting and saying goodbye

yesterday,
my mum told me to get off the computer
i told her i was saving & quitting [ as in i was save and quitting firefox ] and saying goodbye [ good bye as in goodbye to kiara who was on skype ]
and kiara said that could be a song,
one day, me and kiara will be the next jonas brothers
and you will hear the words ' im saving & quitting and saying goodbye ' in one of our songs,

you mark my words (:

ALSO

new years resolutions !
my new years resolution for the past 3 years has been to procrastinate less, but i keep putting it off til the next year...
i wanna make it my resolution this year, but i know i will just end up putting it off again

yes.

yesh lee m'seebah b'habeten sheli
yesh lee m'seebah mee-CH-nasayim sheli
a knee loh yoh-CH-elet m'daberet ivrit [ tov ]

thank you mickie for the hebrew