i love him

yes.

169 till harry potter

my new life ambition is to get wasted in wellington with a bunch of NZYTbers

this is why

101 fucking posts ?

i wanted my 101st post to be special
but no

when i look back on 2007
i think of december of 2007
and when i think of then,
i feel ive grown so much since
and i miss you even more
we were so naive then
and now i realize how much of a great person you are
im sorry
youre the greatest
the only thing i want now is for us to be at least be friends again
so come back to me bluebird
and make my 2008 right
so i that WE can make 2009 right
and stay good, forever

xx

chris hardman

i love how youve come back into my life

ive realized

that me and matt get along pretty well
i think this is the start of a new fixed [ used to be destroyed ] friendship

jacqueline eats all

so kiara and i were watching a cinnamon swirl commercial and we were talking about how they look like us

then the yellower one ( kiara ) licked the dark one ( me )
i said oh my gosh thats us
then kiara said YEAH YOURE THE DARK ONE
then the dark one ate the yellow one

twas really us.

rant.

things are just going downhill from here,
with exams and stuff
i seriously dont need this shit:



i hate it how some guys can be just so charming and lovely, but theres just this feeling that you get that makes you know 'this wont work because we dont see eachother enough'

i hate feeling like i cant handle it anymore

i hate it how someone whos broken your heart multiple times before, will just be all nice and sweet to you, out of the blue, and will try to pull you back in

i hate words

i hate it when my fucking 'best friend' goes freaking emotion overboard every three seconds over something that hasnt changed with a guy

i hate when i have to repeat my self every fucking time to cheer some people up, just so that they can be happy again, and start the cycle again

i hate how im going to miss you

i hate it how it is so imensley hard for me to express myself

i hate it how some people are such fucking biters, and calling me out on copying THEM.
seriously fuck off man.

i hate when you hold some people so dearly to your heart whom you sincerly caring for and then being accused of being a power hungry dictator

i hate it when every single person is having a stupid epidemic that I NEED TO solve right that second even though i shouldnt even know about it

i hate KNOWING that nothing has changed in the last three seconds so dont complain now

i hate venting to people, on account, of i always think they are going through the same thing

i hate how halarious you can be just as i have to get back to reality where we havent/ will never talk again, other than this weekend

i hate having to think before i speak

i hate how im the one who needs to drop everything to cater to everyone else

i hate it how im presumed to have no problems EVER

i hate how you make me smile

i hate it how im the only one left

i hate being the one that is sympathized for; just stop doing it, the FUCKING end.

i hate keeping it in all the time

i hate the feeling i get when i tell someone about something bad in my life

i hate having to carry three conversations at one time, not to mention that im just reciting the same speeches i have three moments earlier

i hate it how i hate you so much and then you just come and sweet talk me to trust you

i hate how one single thought of you makes me want to run to your house, in the frezzing cold in nothing but my shortshorts and tshirt, and take you away from your family, and have you watch them not care that youre getting brutally kidnapped and then torture you but not to death; never to death.

i hate having to make up lies to get you to be quiet

i hate how i know i have to see your face tomorrow

i hate it when i dont respond in 1 second or if i respond with one word im automatically a bitch

i hate being catergorized into the 'she JUST has family problems, big deal' lot even though i have so much shit going on and family problems are just the start of it

i hate not having words to even start to explain how much i am angry

i hate it how the ones i love are so far away

i hate how im not close with you anymore; what ever happened to the three of us ?

i hate that knowing in three years i have to open the box that we buried, just to open it to the face of my sad past

i hate how everything has to be about you

i hate the snow, its not exactly helping me out

i hate how you treat my friends

i hate that the only thing i can think of telling you most of the time is SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID SO FUCKING SHUT YOUR TRAP

i hate how you dont want to fix things

i hate having to be the box that is always unchecked in the survey compared to your boyfriends

i hate it how whenever i see our old friends it makes me want to cry

i hate the thought of if i were loose everyone from my crowd tomorrow it wouldnt effect me

i hate the songs that remind me of you

i hate having to look back at my life before the summer and wishing that i had it back

i hate not having enough money for anything

i hate seeing your fucking biter face everywhere

i hate how there is NO song to describe this feeling i have for you

i hate how great you are sometimes

i hate the longing feeling i get when i see your crowd

i hate that feeling i get when i breath in your general direction of that part of the hemisphere

i hate knowing that i will never compare

i hate how distance is really the thing that keeps me safe


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i just want to leave for a little while
to neri-island
with all the youtubers
and people i love

thatenglishgirl111 part 2

to see part one click here

i just finished watching levi's portrait video* and it featured dannie. i thought that the video was beautifly made and the shots were perfect for the feel i think he was trying to get.

but im not here to review portrait

while watching the video, i realized that dannie, is amazingly beautiful
i know ive said it before
but shes like a more humble and more pure looking angelina jolie

so really, this isnt a part two
its really just a response that had to do with dannie,
oh well

p.s. just to get it straight i really enjoyed the portrait video and think that dannie is perfect

*for levi's portrait video clickhere

i wanted to see what this looked like when i posted it

january 10th 2008

i have 100 fucking subscribers
i so would be doing my happy dance right now
but i dont have the strength to get up

i am really ill

i have no one to blame but myself
though,
since everyone else in the UK is blaming ginger chris
i shall too.

' shes a fucking WALRUS '

this is the first and last time im going to embed a youtube video on here

SORRY AGAIN

but i just had to say
i played blockles with JOHNNYDURHAM today
i print-screened it
but
i printscreened something else
so before i could post the johnny news i print screened this :



it made me feel like i have a chance with him
hes amazing
hes from youtube
and hes pretty
what more can i say ?

im going blog crazy

ive been up since 6:06 this morning
well i woke up at 4:44 and then i couldnt get to sleep so i came onto the computer to do homework
and now this will be my 4th(?) blog today
im sorry.
i am bored
and a HUGE procrastinator
>< !

jess's survey taking is seriously infectious

Given a Hickey? - no
Had a one night stand? - no
Made someone cry? - unfortunately
Opened your Christmas presents early? - nope, ruins the christmas magic
Been online for more than 10 hours in a row? - its not that bad ,
Pretended to be someone you weren't online? - too often
Eaten food that fell on the floor? - haha i live by the five second rule
Been caught cheating? - on a test & game ? yes
Been caught naked? - no
Flashed someone? - probably without me noticing
Gone out without underwear on? - out as in the journey from the washroom to my room, then yes
Got into a fist fight? - yes.
Swallowed bath water? - i havent taken a BATH BATH in like forever
Peed in the pool? - cheyah, im not goina lie to you internet
Thrown up in public? - yeah
Been so drunk you can't walk? - i could walk
Peed in public? - behind a tree yes
Broken wind and blamed someone else? - i dont in crowds
Done something mean you regretted? - very much
Ever played pull my finger? - sorry no. :P

im saving & quitting and saying goodbye

yesterday,
my mum told me to get off the computer
i told her i was saving & quitting [ as in i was save and quitting firefox ] and saying goodbye [ good bye as in goodbye to kiara who was on skype ]
and kiara said that could be a song,
one day, me and kiara will be the next jonas brothers
and you will hear the words ' im saving & quitting and saying goodbye ' in one of our songs,

you mark my words (:

ALSO

new years resolutions !
my new years resolution for the past 3 years has been to procrastinate less, but i keep putting it off til the next year...
i wanna make it my resolution this year, but i know i will just end up putting it off again

yes.

yesh lee m'seebah b'habeten sheli
yesh lee m'seebah mee-CH-nasayim sheli
a knee loh yoh-CH-elet m'daberet ivrit [ tov ]

thank you mickie for the hebrew