rant.

things are just going downhill from here,
with exams and stuff
i seriously dont need this shit:



i hate it how some guys can be just so charming and lovely, but theres just this feeling that you get that makes you know 'this wont work because we dont see eachother enough'

i hate feeling like i cant handle it anymore

i hate it how someone whos broken your heart multiple times before, will just be all nice and sweet to you, out of the blue, and will try to pull you back in

i hate words

i hate it when my fucking 'best friend' goes freaking emotion overboard every three seconds over something that hasnt changed with a guy

i hate when i have to repeat my self every fucking time to cheer some people up, just so that they can be happy again, and start the cycle again

i hate how im going to miss you

i hate it how it is so imensley hard for me to express myself

i hate it how some people are such fucking biters, and calling me out on copying THEM.
seriously fuck off man.

i hate when you hold some people so dearly to your heart whom you sincerly caring for and then being accused of being a power hungry dictator

i hate it when every single person is having a stupid epidemic that I NEED TO solve right that second even though i shouldnt even know about it

i hate KNOWING that nothing has changed in the last three seconds so dont complain now

i hate venting to people, on account, of i always think they are going through the same thing

i hate how halarious you can be just as i have to get back to reality where we havent/ will never talk again, other than this weekend

i hate having to think before i speak

i hate how im the one who needs to drop everything to cater to everyone else

i hate it how im presumed to have no problems EVER

i hate how you make me smile

i hate it how im the only one left

i hate being the one that is sympathized for; just stop doing it, the FUCKING end.

i hate keeping it in all the time

i hate the feeling i get when i tell someone about something bad in my life

i hate having to carry three conversations at one time, not to mention that im just reciting the same speeches i have three moments earlier

i hate it how i hate you so much and then you just come and sweet talk me to trust you

i hate how one single thought of you makes me want to run to your house, in the frezzing cold in nothing but my shortshorts and tshirt, and take you away from your family, and have you watch them not care that youre getting brutally kidnapped and then torture you but not to death; never to death.

i hate having to make up lies to get you to be quiet

i hate how i know i have to see your face tomorrow

i hate it when i dont respond in 1 second or if i respond with one word im automatically a bitch

i hate being catergorized into the 'she JUST has family problems, big deal' lot even though i have so much shit going on and family problems are just the start of it

i hate not having words to even start to explain how much i am angry

i hate it how the ones i love are so far away

i hate how im not close with you anymore; what ever happened to the three of us ?

i hate that knowing in three years i have to open the box that we buried, just to open it to the face of my sad past

i hate how everything has to be about you

i hate the snow, its not exactly helping me out

i hate how you treat my friends

i hate that the only thing i can think of telling you most of the time is SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID SO FUCKING SHUT YOUR TRAP

i hate how you dont want to fix things

i hate having to be the box that is always unchecked in the survey compared to your boyfriends

i hate it how whenever i see our old friends it makes me want to cry

i hate the thought of if i were loose everyone from my crowd tomorrow it wouldnt effect me

i hate the songs that remind me of you

i hate having to look back at my life before the summer and wishing that i had it back

i hate not having enough money for anything

i hate seeing your fucking biter face everywhere

i hate how there is NO song to describe this feeling i have for you

i hate how great you are sometimes

i hate the longing feeling i get when i see your crowd

i hate that feeling i get when i breath in your general direction of that part of the hemisphere

i hate knowing that i will never compare

i hate how distance is really the thing that keeps me safe


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i just want to leave for a little while
to neri-island
with all the youtubers
and people i love